A woman turns into a Diva
How can women improve their self esteem and pursue their dreams?

Continued from previous page: Birth of a Diva  By Daisy Kline (homemaker who lives in Tennessee)

This was scary! How did he know all this simply from my name and a two-minute conversation? How could he guess the innermost secrets of my life? It appeared as if were destined to meet in some way. Being a trustful person, I had no reason not to believe him. We agreed to stay in touch and what began as a playful flirting session completely transformed my life in a matter of days. Over a period of just four days, I received several long emails that laid out his vision of a Diva Grande. I was amazed how clearly he had spelled out every little detail about her life - I always wondered men never really understood women. 

I also learned from Elton that I was not alone. “There are millions of women out there who kill their souls so that they can fit the persona of a woman,” he said. In fact, some women do not even realize what they end up doing. Many of them do it with very noble objectives – to raise children or to pay the bills or just to survive in this tough world. Others do it because we are afraid to tell the world what we really are. We are constantly watching to see if our skirts are too short – how many times have I noticed others and myself adjusting the hemline of our skirts as soon as someone comes by? 

Elton told me about a woman who lives what she calls a double life. “I exist in two very different worlds myself. In one of my worlds I am known as "Helen." The young woman I am telling you about first is an entertainer. She works exclusively at night, not as defined by the clock, but by the sun. Rather by the lack of sun in the sky. Helen works when night rules the heavens. She comes outside with the stars above, when the heat and activities of the day are finished. She brings with her a cell phone and a very simple purse, a small wallet with faked ID, condoms, a small amount of cash for taxi fares, and a kit of simplest cosmetics. Helen's work clothes are designed to be easily put on and off. They are inexpensive -- I suppose 'EXPENDABLE' is the right word. Her most important tools are the cell phone, her looks, her easy and usually agreeable manner, and her total control of situations. Her control is skillfully clever. So much so that her clientele rarely notices at all. 

They seem to feel and behave like a predator finding itself suddenly come upon easy prey. She appears smaller and weaker, almost pitifully defenseless. After an arrangement is made, they part with their money and take her as the prize. They have taken her down with that single monetary exchange in the way of a skilled lion throttling a baby gazelle. She does not struggle after being caught. Within sixty minutes, usually less, both parties live up to their side of the bargain in one way or another. Commodities and cash flow: I don't know if this truly defines entrepreneurship, but it is a "business." Some nights Helen makes several transactions and other nights, business may be off. Occasionally Helen's customers get a bit more for their money. And on occasion Helen cannot agree to the deal proposed her. All in all it has become mostly routine. Helen does not seek to stand out as a leader in her field. She finds simple adequacy ideal. Adequate and efficient; just competent might be the way to say it. She beats the sun to her window, does some simple tallying, showers, and then greets an empty bed. She goes to sleep alone.” 

Continued on next page:  A woman with a double life